Lost In Dreams

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I walk this road alone.
I will never be able to go home.
Everything is far away.
Gone and lost in dreams of yesteryears.

I seek those things of yesterday.
Yet they have disappeared in time.
Gone along with the dreams.
Slipped through time like water through fingers.

I sleep to dream of you and the dreams of what we had then.
I awake and see the things that are the reality of time past.
A place which cannot be changed.
An awaking of how we waste the time we once had.

I walk alone in this road of loneliness.
Knowing that only I and I alone took those dreams away.
In darkness I cry feeling sorry for myself.
I destroyed the time of dreams for that I walk this road alone.

 

 

 

 

 

Photo by James Earl Wells 2017

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My Lovers Prayer

To hold me,
Touch me,
Kiss Me,
Hear my voice one more time.

To see me smile,
To hear me laugh,
To feel my gentle touch,
To make love.

To never let go.
To make me understand,
To give me love never dying.
To say “I Love You.”

My Lover’s Prayer,
My Lover, My Live, My Wife.
My Lover’s Prayer.
My Lovers, A Life that would never end.

My Lover’s Prayer,
To go back and start this all over.
My Lover,

Did it really end?
Gone now.
Flowers,
Tears,
Hearts broken,
A cold stone,
A Name of Long Ago,

My Lover’s Prayer,
My Prayer.
My.

 

 

01/05/2016

The Lingering Line

It is not chalk nor is it pen.
Yet it drew the line.
Clear it was put down on the ground.
There it was for all to see.

No signs needed.
No notice to pass out.
No guard posted.
No message on the radio.

You did not draw this line.
You did not send out a notice.
You did not stop the traffic there.
You did not ask for a guard to stop people.

For all these things you are not guilty.
For all these things you have no part of.
For inside this line so bold to see.
The only one guilty of this line was me.

Many years have passed since then.
Much pain was cause by that line.
You are gone and I but a lonely soul.
Unable to tell you I am sorry.

I pass by that line and see it lingering.
My name hanging there to haunt me.
Your tears still staining the ground.
I bow my head but nothing changes.

It is not chalk nor is it pen.
Yet it drew the line.
Clear it was put down on the ground.
There it was for all to see.

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Drawing: James Earl Wells, Copyright 2012

I Would

I would ask you to call.
But it is to late now.
I would like to see you.
But I walked away.

I would love you again.
But I hear the fault was mine.
I would always be there for you.
But I broke your heart.

I would say I’m sorry.
But you would never hear it.
I would walk until I found you.
But you would move before I got there.

I would marry you.
But I made my feelings known.
I would kiss you everyday.
But you won’t let me get close.

I would do all these things.
But I was the one who ended it.
I would do more for you than ever.
But I broke your heart and you kept mine.

I would, if only.
I would, if I.
I would, how can I.
I would, but you are gone.
I would, I am alone.
I would, I would, I.

Am
Sorry.

I am alone.
I am.
I

 

Long Time Waiting

It has been a long time since we talked.
It has been years since I’ve seen you.
It has been lonely here without you.

It hurts to think of all these years.
I do not know if you will have me again.
My heart aches while you are gone.

Just when I found you.
I found the hurt I cause you.
And I hurt again because of you.

I would love you if you would let me.
I would lay with you without hesitation.
I would run at your every request.

Just when I was ready to reach out.
You were gone again.
Never leaving a trail to follow.

You are with God now.
And I am here without you.
A pain I can barely stand.

I wanted to speak to you one more time.
I wanted to look in your eyes again.
And I wanted to say I am sorry.

Those words have been stolen.
That look will never be.
I am still sorry for the pain I gave you.

Will you save me a place close to you?
Where I can take your hand and look into your eyes.
And once an for all tell you how I feel.
This I promise, This I will do, All just for you.

Conversation In The Dark

I heard you call out to me last night.
I looked but you were not there.
I smelled your perfume in the air.
Yet no one was there.

I felt a touch last night.
I opened my eyes and you were not there.
I could smell your hair.
Yet no one was there.

I saw eyes brown and shining last night.
But you were not there.
I heard the door shut.
Yet no one was there.

I sat on the edge of the bed.
But you spoke no more.
I laid down and closed my eyes.
And still no one was there.

I dream of you last night.
You were smiling at me.
Your hand entwined in mine.
Kissing you ever so gently.

I heard your voice and raised up.
But you were not there.
I felt your touch and glowing eyes.
But no one was there.

Dawn came and was alone.
Looking at the ceiling I knew.
I knew I would never feel those things.
I would never see you and hold you close.

A tear flowed down my cheek.
I looked at your photo standing beside me.
The memories flowed into me like water over a dam.
Yet you were not here.

A single moment in time.
A day without reason or rhyme.
A day of pain and sorrow.
And you were gone.

I promise I will see you again.
Maybe not here.
Maybe not now.
But someday I will see you again.

And no one was there.
But the love in my heart.

Everything To Do About Everything

I know not how to cry.
I do not know why.
I know not how to grieve.
I know not how to say goodbye.

I am unable to understand.
I am not sure where I stand.
I am not sure if you are gone.
I know not know why.

I hope you forgive me.
I was not there for you.
I hope you know I love you.
I hope you know I always have.

I think you might know.
I do not know how I know.
I do not know how to cry.
I do know I miss you.

I do not know how long it lasts.
I do not know where.
I do not know why.
I do not know how to cry.

I wish I could say goodbye.
I wish I could see you one more time.
I wish live had a rewind.
I wish I would have tried.

I know that you are gone.
Though I do not know why.
I hope someday to see you.
I know my life will never be the same.

I just do not know how to cry.

To my dear friend with Love.
Cindy Gayle (Moffatt) Gilliam
Oct. 7 1954 to April 17 2013

And to my life long Friend
Tonia Dee (Wilson) Miller
September 20, 1952 to April 29, 2013

May they rest in peace.