I Am

I am not a robot following commands.
I am a person of strong convictions.
I am not a violent person.
I believe peace can be achieved.

I am not a greedy person.
I believe that wealth breeds corruption.
I am not a war monger.
I believe we can work thing out.

I am not blameless.
I have my faults.
I am not free to insults.
I will walk away.

I am not free of hate.
I believe I can free myself of hate.
I am not heartless.
I can love all.

I am not the person you think I am.
I am and always have been strong in faith.
I am not a doubter.
I am a spreader of Good News.

I am not a monster to be afraid of.
I would not hurt a fly.
I am not a mold of society.
I am me and I walk my own road.

I do not believe in fairy tales.
I believe in my heart.
I do not keep secrets.
I am an open book.

I am not God.
I would not pretend to be.
I am not an Angel.
That would be pretending to be God.

I am always here.
I am always caring.
I am always loving.
I am always there for you.
I am the one who will hold you while you cry.
I am the who will listen.
I am the person that smiles at you each day.
I am all of this and more.

I am not.
Yet I am.
That was yesterday.
And this is today.
I am not yesterday.
I am now.

I am not.
Yet I am.

I am.
Are you?


White Raven

In darkness I travel.
I do not need light you see.
I am behind the door.
I am in the closet and under the floor.

I sit on your roof looking down.
I scratch your windows and panes.
I watch you peek out into the night.
I hear you cover your head.

When you leave, I go.
When you return, I am there.
Ever watching, seeing only you.
In the mirror you will not see.

I am the burden of life for you and me.
I slip past your door at night.
I watch you sleep, your sheets over your head.
I hear you breath and for a moment your breath is mine.

I sit on top of your house.
I wait for you each day.
I know that someday you will pay.
And I will be there to take you away.

I am white in the night.
I am nothing in the light.
My eyes peer through the darkness.
Just to watch you while you sleep.

I spread my wings and call in the night.
You answer when you shake and look out.
You life is ever close to me.
I am the White Raven who collects souls.

You will not see me but I am there.
I will watch you and you will feel me.
I see everything that you do.
I wait claws wrapped on the tile roof.

I hear what no man hears.
The calling of the dead.
I am the White Raven who sees in the dark.
I am the one that the light never touches.

And I watch you in the night.

Daughter Of Mine

When I first looked into your big brown eyes.
I knew the world was about to change.
Even a small as you were.
You would cause many tears.
Tears of Joy and Love.

I knew we would fight.
I knew there would be times you would not like me.
But I knew that I would always Love You.
That I would watch over and protect you.
Even when you did not want me to.

You started school and I cried.
You played in sports and I cried.
You had a boyfriend and I was scared.
You grew up to fast and I cried. 
You were still my little girl.

You went to a dance and I watched.
As you went from a child you a young woman.
I became selfish and wanted my little girl back.
God had other plans for this wonderful child.

Time flew by and one day you were married.
And I cried.
You had your babies and I cried.
I look and now you are woman.
Working hard to make your life.
And I cried.

I miss the music, the singing and dancing.
I miss your voice each day.
I miss your big brown eyes.
Making Daddy melt, and yes, you got your way.
And that made me cry.

No matter how old you get.
No matter how far away you may be.
I will always love you.
And I will cry.
Not tears of sorrow but of joy.

You see when they put you in my arms that day.
I became something that I never dreamed I would be.
I became a Father and Protector of this small child.
There was no manual of instructions so we did our best.
Now that child is a Mother, Provider of Love and Care.

Melanie, when you were born, God gave me another chance.
A chance to show that I can love as much as he does.
As he is our Father, I am yours too.
And without a doubt you are the greatest daughter in the world.

And I am crying.
Not of sorrow but of Joy.

I Will Always Love You as I told you many years ago.
Proud and full of joy that God gave me you.
And I will Cry.
Not of sorrow but of Joy.

My brown eyed little girl is a woman now.
In joy I cry for the happiness you have given me.
In joy I cry for the memories I have of you.
In joy I will cry, just for you.

Melanie, I Love You.



Photo By Barbara Jean Wells, Copyright 2013





Last Words

Something told me not to come.
Someone gave me a note from the beyond.
I do not understand why.
And when I read it, I began to cry.

The signature was plane to see.
It was a note to set me free.
I never wanted to see this day.
And I never thought I would have nothing to say.

Like the sun setting in the west.
I was sure I gave it my very best.
Somehow I knew how you would feel.
But never guessed you would wait till now.

As they lowered you into the ground.
I became lost again and would never be found.
So why did you pick this way to leave?
When I was waiting to see you and make you believe.

You are gone and I am here.
I am here living in fear.
They day never came for me to say my last words.
The words I am sorry, for what I had done.

So now that you are there and I am here.
Please know I will always think of you dear.
The love in my heart will never part.
And you will still own the largest part.

Goodnight my dear sleep tight.
I will see you sometime after midnight.

Everything To Do About Everything

I know not how to cry.
I do not know why.
I know not how to grieve.
I know not how to say goodbye.

I am unable to understand.
I am not sure where I stand.
I am not sure if you are gone.
I know not know why.

I hope you forgive me.
I was not there for you.
I hope you know I love you.
I hope you know I always have.

I think you might know.
I do not know how I know.
I do not know how to cry.
I do know I miss you.

I do not know how long it lasts.
I do not know where.
I do not know why.
I do not know how to cry.

I wish I could say goodbye.
I wish I could see you one more time.
I wish live had a rewind.
I wish I would have tried.

I know that you are gone.
Though I do not know why.
I hope someday to see you.
I know my life will never be the same.

I just do not know how to cry.

To my dear friend with Love.
Cindy Gayle (Moffatt) Gilliam
Oct. 7 1954 to April 17 2013

And to my life long Friend
Tonia Dee (Wilson) Miller
September 20, 1952 to April 29, 2013

May they rest in peace.